Look A Bird!

Why do I feel this way?

I feel so lost, so low, so depressed, so unimportant, so out of it. I am walking around and just feeling so withdrawn and totally not myself. I know that I am fighting a spiritual battle, it has just all hit me so fast. I was and am still pumped about dealing with my issues I just thought that I was a little more prepared for this. But maybe I am and that is why Satan is hitting me so hard with the moody, uselessness that I am having.

It is weird I am still really on top of reading my Bible. Which is so good because that is something that I have always seemed to struggle with. But I am looking forward to it and it's always on my mind. I am thinking about what I have read and trying to learn from it. I am reading in Acts and it's teaching that no matter what the end result is, you need live what you believe. And it doesn't matter what people say it's all about you and your God, your Father, your savior, your Creator and your Best Friend.

I am constantly trying to keep my head in tune with God and trying to understanding why am I feeling the way I do. More then anything I want to be so incredible close to God, so intimate...but it frustrates me that I don't know how to be intimate with Him ..... yet! One good thing about this is that I am constantly learning about all I need to deal with. I am getting closer and closer to God through this. It amazes me that through all my moods and lack of understanding, I am getting closer to God.

Thank you Lord for being my strength when I am weak.

posted by LA @ 11:10 PM