Look A Bird!

Where am I going?

The last week has been a week of trial, pain, heart ache, and just plan stinkiness. I don't know how people can go through a break up more then once in a life time. Right now it seems so hard and painful. I have had my ups and downs all week, where I am think I am doing ok and then the next minute I am laying in bed crying. Wow this is hard, but I think the hardest thing is the thought that I have hurt someone that is important to me and that tears me apart. To be so close with someone and then just like that not, I don't understand how people can do it over and over. I wish so much that I could just call him up and see how he is truly doing. But still the pain is to much.

Today was a good day, but of course it had it's ruff moments. I got up and went to church and I was so excited to see Dave B. He came up to teach Meggs lights, and I got to hang out with him even....eww uhh! Morning service was good and I got to hang out with a good friend over an ice cream...sorbert for me! ( no milk no ...... well you know!) Then I hung out with Dave and Meggs for the afternoon, we went shopping ... is that suppose to have to p's? oh well it was a lot of fun and it was good for me to be out and not thinking so much.

It just keeps amazing me that even when everything in your life and I do mean everything.... your job, relationships, ministry, and future is all up in the air. You don't have a cule were God is taking you but all that you know is that if you don't stay close to Him and lean on Him you would be lost and in even worse shape that I am in now. The though makes me shiver. Thanks you Lord for taking care of me and even when I have times like the one that I am in now I know that you are in control an you have a plan.

posted by LA @ 12:14 PM