Let me help.......
Well it actually happening, everything in place. The plans have been made, I am moving! All that I need to do now is start going through my stuff and start packing.....yuck...it feels like I just did that. Ohh wait I did!!! LOLI have to say though that I am dealing with the realization that I am leaving much better. I was at church on Sunday night and I had had a really good day. But I couldn't sit still so went to the back to walk around for a bit. I started to pray to figure out what was wrong? why do I feel so unsettled? why dose it hurt? The answer that I got was a good kicker... I was still fighting God on not wanting to go. I thought I had dealt with it and it was just going to take some time. But no I still wasn't totally on the same page as God.
Since then I have really totally given it up top God! I felt a burden lift and a peace come on me. Now dose that mean I am not sad about leaving now? Dose that mean that I am not going to miss everyone up hear? HECK NO.... but I am truly and genuinely excited about starting another layer in my life. My season up hear is done.
Wow I can't believe that I can say it, write it or even thinking and I am totally at peace. God is soo cool and he know what I need way more then I do. He knows me better that I know myself ...how crazy is that!?!
I am really looking forward to my rest period while I'll be living at home. I know it's going to be a challenge for me to just not have to be anywhere, or do anything...but I really feel like God and I are going to blow some amazing things up. And I will be able to yet again learn more about how is cares, loves, and has purpose for me. Ya little old me..he cares enough for me to have all my hairs counted and is so willing to just sit with me while I cry, laugh, while I'm sad or mad. I am just blown away again... about how much I don't know still about God or myself. I am looking forward to seeing where God is going to take me with in the next 6 months.
God's burden is light and is yoke is easy.......hand it back!
posted by LA @ 2:55 AM
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