You have a purpose
You are who you are for a purpose.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's specail woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistakes.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the master's seal.
No, that trama that you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by your masters rod.
You are who you are beloved,
Because there is a God!!
- Rusell Kelfer
Where am I going?
why and I here?
God where are you taking me?
I feel so lost,
I don't know where to go,
Lord am I fully listening to God?
What have I done?
Why do I akways mess up?
God are my eyes open?
I feel like such a failure,
I feel like whatever I do is a disaster,
God hear my cry!
The rear of my car has a story to tell.....
Well it was a nice Fiday after noon and I just come away from a meeting with a very special friend of mine...Dave Overholt! He encouraged me alot and it was nice just to talk to him about where I would like to go in life. It went really well and I was in a very good mood.
After that I was on my way to work for a 1-9:15pm shift in Hamilton. I was just about there, the traffice was a little slow and just as I am coming up to my turn the guy in front of me brakes again suddenly. Thankfully I am able to stop in time too...whew! But then suddenly I was it from behind! Great, so I pulled over got out and asked if everyone was ok (becuase there was 5 teenage boys in the car that hit me.. intimidating I think so) so the drive a really young guy that really didn't know what to do got out and we were checking out our cars. I was in shock and didn't know what to do so everything looked ok so we got in our cars and drove away. Not the best thing to do because though my car was fine I wasn't ready for what my back and neck would be like for the next 3 days!
But things are good my back and neck hurt quiet abit but I was able to see my caropractor right away and I am going agian tomorrow. So I will servive. If you are looking for something to pray about I would appresiate prayer. I don't want my ingeries to need ferther x-rays or checing out so I would appresiate your prayers so much! Thanks!
Watch out for those rears...they can catch up on you! LOL :)
Life is an emotional rollercoster....
Well it has been a long time since I have been able to sit and actually blog what has been going on. Ok where to start???... well I am sure you all know that Meggs and I have been moved into our new place 3 weeks yesterday... wow has it been that long? Crazy! Things are good in the new place nice to feel like we are out on our own and it is nice to come home to quiet! YAY! And as for organization well our office is a little unorganized to say the least, but for the most part the rest of the place it good!
I am starting to recover from the move and the stress of the whole move and life on top of a move. It is so werid there have been times in the last 3 weeks where I have been asking God where am I suppose to be, why am I so worthless, and what is wrong with me. I have been really struggling with my confidence and just feeling like an out cast! So many things in life that can bring you down and I don't think I had been that down in a long time. The only thing that seemed to be going well or going at all was my relationship with God. And you know alot of people would say why are you complaining or so down for all you need is God? If that relationship is going well then things should be all good. I can agree with that at time but it is really important to be able to feel good about who you are, that you have friends and a family that support you, that you can have fun on any given day or situation. That you aren't walking around with your head hung because you feel like the out cast or the divder of friends. And on top of that you feel like a big failure!
Now with that said I am not pointing fingers or asking for more support. This is my blog, in a way my journal a time for me to get out what I have been thinking, feeling, and needed. I need to let out what has been going on with out everyone around me going oh are you ok what can I do? Or I am sorry that I wasn't there...becuase that is not what I am saying. What I am saying is that I think it would be important for us to be able to have fun again as friends! When you can see that someone is down, go give them a hug tell that that you will be praying for them and see what you can do to bring them up. They don't need people always talking about the things that are getting them down. The more they talk about it, the more they get down and just get more upset. Plus I think that is also can cause us to gossip, or stretch the truth.. I know that at times I have done this and not meant to at all.
But that is just my feelings on this, if you don't agree that is fine. I have just been experienceing some things that I have been having a hard time dealing with, whether personal or even social...and I am tired of really haveing to work so hard on keeping everyone happy... I can't make everything good or work out perfect. I hate that I can't but the real and raw fact is that I CAN'T and I need to be ok with that. Can't well all try and come to the place where we are ok with not being able to always make things better? I know that I am struggling and it's not fun and i am working on it a lot.
For all the people that are reading my blog, I want you all to know that I am going to be working on having fun again in the group and not always focusing on the stress and hard times. If I see that you are not doing well, I'll be there for a hug anytime please know that!! And if I don't ask it dosen't mean that I don't care, it means that if you need to talk and need someone to pray with you, Please ask me I will be more then happy to listen and pray with you! And please please don't get affended if I don't want to talk about my feelings at that moment. It is not that I don't trust you or care to share, it maybe that I just need to focus on being happy right then.
